I FEEL I CAN WRITE THIS NOW.....

I have wanted to write about my friend Dawn who passed away at the end of September on this blog for some weeks now but it never was quite the right moment and now it is....

Dawn - what can I say, you were and still are an inspiration to us all. Dawn had a long battle with breast cancer and I mean a battle. It was a battle that she fought long and hard. It started off with breast cancer and then after a short period of remission reared its ugly head again in the form of bone cancer. All of Dawn's friends and family rallied round to raise money so Dawn could have the best chance of fighting this awful disease. Dawn was able through monies raised attend a clinic in Germany to obtain additional treatments alongside that offered in the UK. It was her sheer determination for life and living that got her on that plane...sometimes when she was in considerable pain.

I didn't see Dawn all the time and cannot take any credit for helping her every day of the week as did her very closest friends, but when I did see her we always, yes always managed to laugh. Dawn had a laugh that I will never forget a girlish giggle almost, how she managed to laugh sometimes I will never know but she did.

Dawn shared her story with the world through a progamme called the Mummies Diaries where they followed the story of a group of terminally ill Mums, it was the most poignant but beautiful programme and so sad when each of them lost their lives. Dawn was the last one standing (apart from one who was misdiagnosed) which shows the determination she had. I remember saying to her how brave she was doing the programme and she simply said if it helps other families it will all be so worthwhile. She also believed that by doing the programme it would be something her 3 gorgeous kids would have forever.

Dawn you will never be forgotten it was a privilege to have known you and yes I am angry with God for taking you but pleased that he let you enter my life.

Dawns kids are her legacy and they and Steve her husband are doing really well but we all know its hard and will be especially hard at this time of year.

Thank you Dawn for being my friend I will never forget youxxx